the funny thing is..

you are breaking my concentration.

heartless

i thought it would be easier, but i guess i'm wrong. feel like i'm another-kind-of Bella Swan. weak, so weak, so fragile. lost. pathetic.

full-stop

i wrote your name in my heart and won't be erased.
so I'll always read your name in my heart.
and your name will always be with every beat of my heart.
forever. until the day i die.

by:

BESTIE

FINALLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

i met my lovely bestie. after more than 2years we haven't meet yet, finally on my birthday (november 21st) we met! yippy! xD. i was so excited. but unfortunately, we just met for 1hour, and we will meet again on august 2010. hoaaaaa. i'll be missing her -___-

well, this is the pictures of me and MAYA my bestie :) fyi: we are doing cyber friendship :P. she's living in batam. the first time we 'met' on myspace -it's so last yeaaaarrrsss- and now we are still best friend.

she's very tall!

she's skinny too ;(

ANGER

saya benar-benar marah. sangat marah.

THIS IS NOT THE END OF HELLO-GOODBYE

welcome love

hello-goodbye

a memory lasts forever, never does it die. true love stay together and never said goodbye. but i guess.. this is the end of

yawn

have you ever feel so tired? have you ever feel like you do not have energy to response someone thoughts? geezz.. i feel that way. it took all of my energy and emotions.

what your opinion about people who thinks that you are a selfish person while he/she never respect you at all in every single way? don't you think that person is a more selfish than we are? don't you?

can you describe about what's respect means? can't you?

i hate your girlfriends. i hate them. clear enough?

IBU

Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible. ~Marion C. Garretty

get well soon momma. love ya.

the biggest passion, TODAY

i have new favorite band right now. THE TEMPER TRAMP. one of the famous band in UK and actually the vocalist is come from Indonesia. they're based in Australia and called their genre as Zouk. i don't know whatever it is too ~_~ but yeah, i love the music. easy listening and cool. you better to listen it :)

*Dougy Mandagi, the former of this band and he's Indonesian

click this:

The Temper Trap

HB REZALDY!!!

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Love you my bestie ;D

DOH

currently listening to: Guns N Roses - Better
mood: awful

cannot sleep more than three hours at a time. worst its ever been.

..

2 yrs 1 mnth

joyeux anniversaire

unfair

rejection
refusal
lies
hurts
hate



love
sad love

He's A Magic

last night i had a dream of this beautiful boy

i think he's a magic. he touch my heart. love to death

do not hesitate yourself to hurt me

thank you for being mean to me - thank you for being so cruel to me

being here again and again is not what i want. it's my fate. not what i choose.

i will never can catch you gorii

Year Book make me insane

okay, i have this big project on my campus. since i've been choosed become a leader on this thing, i have to googling some items and share ideas with other people. all i want for my YB is fashion stuff. it's kinda hard i guess, because when we want to give an idea about the theme, some people can not understand about it means. i'll give several options for the theme, such as;

Carnival

Colorful

Flowery

Animal Print

and actually there are 6 themes more for this YB. according to plan, next Monday, i'll give out the questionnaire to whole students. wish me luck for the YB!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY CALISTHA FIDELLA! ;D

Today is my friend's birthday. She's Cindy Calistha Fidella. She's already 22 years old right now. The first time i met her when i was in Senior High School, she was my senior at there. Actually i didn't notice her as my senior! :P But then, we were going to the same class on LIA and she's become one of my close friends since that time. But til now we haven't meet again, and i miss her so muuuuccchhh (and of course our other friends too!) Wish we'll meet soon! Once again my dear, Happy Birth Cake Day my sist - xoxo

wanita

dia adalah wanita

kuat, tegar, penuh perjuangan

dia adalah wanita

menuntut hak dan martabatnya sebagai wanita

dia adalah wanita

mencari terang dalam gelap

dia adalah wanita

mencari mataharinya

tuhan, berilah kekuatanMu untuknya

~ you know we love you so much

you're dead to me

I must accept but cant what cannot be.

I see you and my heart dissolves in pain.
You are not dead, but you are dead to me.
What happened to our loves a mystery.

I rummage through our empty past in vain.
I must accept but cant what cannot be:
That someone else now shares your off-hand we,
Now feels your tender tongue all feeling drain . . .

You are not dead, but you are dead to me.
I cannot lay aside my agony:
Again, again, I play the same refrain.
I must accept but cant what cannot be.

And yet I know this tortured ecstasy
Is just my way of holding you again.
You are not dead, but you are dead to me,

And still I cannot bear to set you free,
That of our love some remnant might remain.
I must accept but cant what cannot be.
You are not dead, but you are dead to me.

take a deep breath

and it makes me cry..

WATCH THIS

Aghi asked me to watch this video, and this is so fucking hilarious! cmmon people, watch this video! ;D

braindead

Do you go to the country
It isn't very far
There's people there who will hurt you
Cos of who you are

Your ears are full of the language
There's wisdom there you're sure
'Til the words start slurring
And you can't find the door
So give me Coffee and TV
History I've seen so much
I'm goin blind
And i'm braindead virtually
Sociability
It's hard enough for me
Take me away from this big bad world
And agree to marry me
So we can start all over again

sleepy day

hari rabu kemarin kelas 3.10 make up class business writing. dan saya benar-benar merasa ngantuk! kalo si pocut ngga ada di sebelah gue pasti udah tidur pules tuh. untung ada si bawel itu ;p tapi ya namanya juga ngantuk, ngga ada yang masuk ke otak pelajarannya. hahhaa. dan gue cuma gambar-gambar jelek ngga jelas..

sorry Mr. Mari, i didn't pay much attention to your subject! ;p

assignments

today was a hectic day! too many assignments! gaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, i might throw up. for about 12 hours i have to stare my pc screen! what the?!

pertama-tama gue mulai ngedit-ngedit buat travoz. mulai lengkapin apa-apa aja yang kurang, dan buka-buka artikel apa aja dan siapa aja yang harus gue follow up. target yang udah ditentuin belum juga kesampean. hh. cape banget, harus duduk berjam-jam di depan komputer dan cuma ngelakuin hal itu-itu aja. (well, gue tetep buka ini itu kok jadi ngga mati kutu banget). akhirnya setelah beberapa saat di depan komputer selese juga artikel yang harus gue edit. tapi tetep yang follow up gitu-gitu belum gue selesein. semua belum ada yang bisa nyelesein lama-lama gue juga yang ngerjain :(

ini beberapa data yang harus dilengkapin dan harus gue follow up ke anak-anak yang lain. lumayan banyak deh, dan itu juga udah ditentuin berapa halamanya. tapi yang terkumpul baru beberapa, bikin streeessss! - (ngga keliatan ya bow gambarnya? hehe)

then, della texted me and ask me to join her conference chat with pocut and tina. tugas satu udah sedikit berkurang sekarang saatnya ngerembukin buat bikin presentasi CS. kita semua cuma ngasih pendapat dan pandangan tentang surat keluhan dan surat tanggapan dari perusahaan jasa. dan menyebalkannya, ym gue keluar masuk terus kaya ingus! arrghhh, kesel banget della harus berkali-kali invite gue buat join. dan alhasil keputusan udah ada, dan yang bertugas bikin presentasi mustika.

udah selese chat, gue mulai nyicil buat ngerjain aplikom. niat pingin santai bentar tapi udah keburu panik, akhirnya mulai cari data-data. dan rencananya gue, tina dan pocut mau bahas tentang produk-nya Anna Sui Collection 2009. aga kesel ribet harus ini itu dosennya minta, animasi harus detail sana-sini.

kotaknya pake animasi yang kesannya kaya dibikin satu-satu gitu.

mulai dari sini gue pake lagunya the kills - cheap and cheerfull

background gue sengajain item polos karena gambar juga udah lumayan gede dan berwarna-warna gitu.

udah hampir jadi sekitar 12 slide dari hasil browse sana-sini, gue baru sadar kalo yang disuruh dosennya itu powerpoint 2007 sedangkan powerpoint rumah gue masih yang 2003 ajee.. males gila. pingin nginstal yang 2007 niat download gratis malah kena virus, kamfret! ya udahlah ya sekalian aja gue selesein palingan entar di format blabla.


sekarang badan gue mau rontok ya ampun cape gila! dan harus nyari 1RM berapa rupiah, eh berapa rupiah sih? katanya 3ribuan ya?

tollooooonggg sayaaaaaaa!

tugas menumpuk! belum lagi urusan travoz belum selese. ya Allah.. cape banget :( bayangin aja untuk minggu depan udah harus presentasi aplikom, customer service, ngindeks lebih dari 400 nama buat kearsipan, dan yang bikin stres bahan-bahan majalah masih belum selese.ditambah si agnes tadi bilang gue jadi kandidat buat ketua buku tahunan angkatan. what the?! otak mau pecaaaaaaaaahh rasanya! belah-belah aja deh ah gue, badan rasanya mau rontok. cape cape capeeee!!!!!!! :(

tears

once again, tears fall from my eyes
it won't dry, will not ever
i do, i do really need you that much
all i wanna do right now is just need your sympathy
please, i beg you please show your sympathy

yeah

blablablablablablabla.. go on.. say everything you want to.. blablablablablablaaaa..

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nyampah

okay what's wrong with all people? i thought everthing was fine and nice. but the truth is, they're FAKE.
pertama-tama bersikap baik sama gue, telp gue, dirasa pun mau temenan sama gue. tapi ternyata dibelakang gue.. hh.. cmmon girl, he's my bestfriend. we have no more chemistry except for bff. i'm trying to be a nice person to you, tapi ko balesan lo ke gue kaya gini?

kadang serba salah ya punya temen deket yang punya pacar sampe 'segitunya'. padahal orang itu udah tau hubungan kedekatan gue sama sahabat gue itu kaya gimana.. dari smp udah bareng. luar dalem jelek borok baik-nya udah tau. saling ngedukung apapun juga. harusnya tuh cewe sadar dong gue pun ngedukung sahabat gue pacaran sama dia. yaudahlah ya, mungkin emang tuh cewe aga gimana gitu sebenernya sama gue. tapi ya bilang kek dari awal. ngga usah awalnya baik belakangnya malah gitu. keciwa gue..

udah ah, malem-malem nyampah mulu. ngga baik buat kebersihan (hati). hahaha..

My Lovely Cory Kennedy

seandainya saya seorang bisexual dan seandainya ia lesbian,
impian saya adalah untuk MEMACARInya

i'm so fuckin' in love with her

Cory Kennedy

dedicated to you

saya tau tidak pernah dipaksa
saya tau itu
saya tau tidak pernah ada pilihan terucap, untuk memilih iya atau tidak
tapi bagaimanapun juga saya masih punya hak untuk memilih dan memutuskan kan?

saya tau saya terlalu berharap
tapi apa saya salah terus berharap?
saya tau menurutmu saya tidak menghargai kamu
tapi apa kamu bisa menghargai saya?

saya tau kamu tidak pernah memaksa
tapi apa saya salah memutuskan apa yang menurut saya benar?
tanpa paksaan pun saya tetap memilih keputusan saya itu
apa saya salah?

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Aghi Narottama

OMG OMG OMG! Aghi Narottama sent me a wall! yiihiiiee! xD i'm so happy. fyi, he's a music director, music producer, filmscore&jingle composer, sound engineer and also musician. the first time i saw him on RAME RAMERAH last night. i really like his music with his band APE ON THE ROOF.

He's Aghi Narottama. I guess he looks like Raditya Dika (one of the famous writter in Indonesia)

Aghi

V.S

Raditya

It started when i gave him a wall and tell him that i was impressed with his perfomance last night. After that he replied it and give me a wall. Maybe it's not too excited thing for some people like you guys, but for me it's totally an exited thing! HE REPLIED MY WALL PEOPLEEEE! HUAHHAHAHAHAHHAA - lebay: MODE ON

17 08 45

SELAMAT HARI KEMERDEKAAN

we're not afraid ~ Indonesia Unite

rame ramerah

Yesterday i came to RAME RAMERAH at Kandank Jurank Doank, Ciputat. Actually it was an event for celebrate Indonesia Independence Day. There were lots of events, such as workshop games and also some performances from indie artists of AksaraRecords. There are some pictures that i taken when i was there. Here's the mini album.

*check sounds look like. band: PASUKAN LIMA JARI, and i guess i'm in love with their drummer Muhammad Agiel Mahisa. oohhh, i'm soo in loveee xD. he's also a DJ by the way

*SORE, they also performed at sore-sore ;p

*THE ADAMS, love Saleh! (he's really a funny guy)

*PASUKAN LIMA JARI, bring the reggae back! ;D

* THE BRANDALS always give an attractive performance!

* GOODNIGHT ELECTRIC. i love batmaaannn! :D

*Sari is one of my idol (WHITE SHOES & THE COMPANY)

*APE ON THE ROOF, love the singer!

*here it is the crowd at kandank jurank doank

*one of the crowd when EFEK RUMAH KACA was performed

*one of the perfomance of EFEK RUMAH KACA - song: December

*everyone loves EFEK RUMAH KACA!